Unveiling My Writer’s Journey
I can’t remember why I love writing so much, especially poetry.
The first time I wrote poetry and short stories was when I was in junior high school. Do you know what kind of poetry I wrote? Yep, love poems. I didn’t even know where the ideas for my poems came from, but they were all about love. I used to write on Blogspot too, but in high school, I felt embarrassed and deleted my account. Not to mention the imaginary stories on Wattpad with characters based on celebrities, hahaha.
I always kept the poems I created to myself because I was too shy, thinking, “What is this?” But, well, one of my fiction stories on Wattpad, called “Who is He?” with the main character named “Kirana Vio,” got 22K readers, hahaha. I never expected that. So, what happened to it? I deleted my Wattpad account again, all because of embarrassment.
If any of you have read the story “Who is He?” on Wattpad with the main character “Kirana Vio,” hahaha, that’s definitely one of my creations.
Anyway, it all started with poetry. I just enjoyed writing poetry, and when I read poetry (don’t ask whose works because I just enjoy reading them), I’m truly amazed by their choice of words, always thinking, “What have they been through to come up with such beautiful words?”
It’s so cool; I want to be like them.
So, I kept writing poetry in my school notebooks, and I had about 8 A5-sized notebooks. Honestly, I don’t know where those notebooks are now. I continued writing until now, at the age of 24, but I write less frequently.
Do people know that I like to write? Yes, they do. But I never show them because I have my own pen name. But in the past, I dared to publish one of my poems on Instagram. Of course, not on my personal Instagram account, but on an Instagram account that often reposts other people’s poems by sending them via email.
When it got reposted, I felt so cool, haha. The account’s name was “berbagirasa,” and I sent a lot of poems via email. Eventually, one of them was reposted with something like this:
“Senja tetap selalu jingga
Begitupula aku yang selalu mencinta”
It sounds so cheesy now, haha. I was 15 or 16 years old in that year, 2015.
Since then, I became more diligent in creating stories on Wattpad and writing in general. But I eventually stopped when I started college.
My writing may not be great, the structure and word choice may not be perfect, but I’m happy as long as those who read it can imagine and truly feel what I’m trying to convey through my words.
Writing has been my silent companion through the years.
It’s been a way to express my thoughts and emotions, even when I couldn’t find the courage to share them with others. It’s like a secret world I enter, where words flow like a river, carrying me away to distant places and emotions. It’s a form of self-discovery, a journey of exploring the depths of my own soul.
I often wonder why I’m drawn to writing, especially poetry. Perhaps it’s because in those moments when I’m crafting a poem, I feel a connection to something larger than myself. It’s as if I’m tapping into the universal language of human emotions, and I become a vessel for those feelings to flow through.
Despite the occasional self-doubt and embarrassment, writing has remained an essential part of my life. It’s a reminder that creativity knows no bounds, and it’s okay to share a piece of your soul with the world, even if it feels vulnerable. So, I continue to write, in the hope that my words may resonate with someone out there, just as the words of poets I admire have touched my heart.
In the end, it’s not about perfection; it’s about the authenticity of expression. Writing, to me, is a journey of self-discovery, a testament to the beauty of words, and a celebration of the human experience.
